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The neighborhood was quiet in the early morning light, the kind of place where every lawn was trimmed just enough, every driveway swept clean, every house modest but cared for. A row of single-story homes lined the street, each painted in soft earth tones that had faded gently under years of California sun. Birds chattered from the jacaranda trees, their purple blossoms scattered across the sidewalks like confetti.

The Cross house sat near the corner, small and tidy, with a white-framed porch and a front yard that Orion's father kept neatly edged. It was not fancy. It was not expensive. But it felt lived-in, warm, and safe.

Inside, the smell of toast and scrambled eggs lingered in the kitchen. Orion sat at the table, legs swinging under his chair, a half-finished glass of orange juice in front of him. At six years old he was all bright eyes and restless energy, his dark hair sticking up in the back from where he had slept on it wrong.

His mother moved around the kitchen with practiced ease, rinsing plates and stacking them in the sink. His father checked his watch and glanced toward the hallway.

"We should get going soon," his father said. "If we want to be there when it opens."

Orion perked up instantly. "Are we still going to see the space stuff?"

His mother smiled. "Yes, sweetheart. The space stuff is still there."

"And the big plane?"

"It's not a plane," his father corrected gently. "It's a rocket. But yes, we'll see it."

Orion grinned and bounced in his seat. "I wanna see everything."

"You will," his mother said, wiping her hands on a towel. "But first, go get your shoes."

He hopped down from the chair and ran toward the hallway, his footsteps thumping lightly across the floor. A moment later he returned, shoes on the wrong feet, but proudly ready.

His father crouched down to fix them. "You excited?"

Orion nodded hard. "I wanna see the stars."

His father paused, just for a second, a small and thoughtful look crossing his face. "You will," he said quietly. "Someday."

They gathered their things, locked the front door, and stepped out into the warm Pasadena morning. The sun was already bright, the air already warming. Orion held his mother's hand as they walked to the car, practically vibrating with anticipation.

The drive passed without much comment, a blur of freeways and traffic and city streets, until they pulled into the parking lot of the California Science Center in Los Angeles. Families were already gathering near the entrance, children tugging at their parents' hands, chatter filling the air.

Inside, the museum buzzed with life. Exhibits glowed under soft lighting. Interactive displays beeped and chimed. The hum of voices echoed through the open atrium.

Orion darted from one display to the next, his parents trailing behind him with amused patience.

"Stay where we can see you," his mother reminded him.

"I am!" he called back, pressing his hands against a glass case that held a fragment of meteorite.

They moved through the exhibits, past rockets and capsules and solar system models, past hands-on science stations where Orion asked questions faster than his parents could answer them.

"How far is that star?"

"Why is the rocket so big?"

"Could I go to space?"

"What's inside a black hole?"

His father laughed softly. "One question at a time, buddy."

An hour passed in a blur of excitement.

And then it happened.

They were in a crowded section of the space exhibit, families packed shoulder to shoulder. Orion had been standing right beside his mother, staring up at a suspended model of a satellite. She turned her head for a moment, just a moment, to answer something his father had said.

When she looked back, Orion was gone.

Her breath caught. "Orion?"

No answer.

She stepped forward, scanning the crowd. "Orion!"

His father's voice sharpened. "Orion!"

People turned. A few parents pulled their own children closer. The air shifted, a ripple of concern spreading outward.

His mother's voice rose, thin with panic. "Orion! Where are you?"

Ten seconds passed.

Then, suddenly, he was there. Standing exactly where he had been before. Calm. Still. Looking up at the satellite model as if nothing had happened.

His mother rushed to him, dropping to her knees and pulling him into her arms. "Where were you? You scared me."

Orion blinked at her, confused. "I was right here."

His father exchanged a look with her, unsettled and unsure.

"Let's go," his father said quietly. "We're going home."

They did not argue. They did not stay. They simply gathered themselves and walked out of the museum, Orion holding tightly to his mother's hand, glancing back once at the exhibits he had not gotten to see.

Outside, the sun was still bright. The day was still warm. The world looked exactly the same.

But something had changed.

They did not talk about it on the way home.

They never talked about it again.

And that was the end of the day Orion Cross disappeared for the first time.

The lecture hall held two hundred and forty students. Orion Cross sat in the third row.

He had chosen the third row deliberately. Not the front, that would draw attention he didn't want. Not the back, that felt like surrender. The third row was close enough to hear everything clearly, far enough back to go unnoticed. He had spent most of his life perfecting the art of going unnoticed.

Professor Alan Garrett was mid-sentence when Orion's hand went up.

"The solution assumes a uniform pressure gradient," Orion said quietly. "But the boundary condition at the thermal interface isn't uniform. If you account for the variance, the efficiency calculation changes by roughly eleven percent."

The professor stopped. Two hundred and thirty-nine students turned to look at the young man in the third row. Orion felt the weight of their attention like a physical thing and resisted the urge to look at the floor.

Professor Garrett studied him for a long moment over the rims of his glasses. He was sixty-one years old, had taught at MIT for thirty-five years, and had not been corrected mid-lecture since 2004.

"Name?" he said.

"Cross. Orion Cross."

"Year?"

"First."

Another pause. Garrett turned back to the board, erased three lines of calculation, and rewrote them. He studied the results. Then he turned back to the room with the expression of a man who has just been proven wrong and has decided to be gracious about it.

"Mr. Cross is correct," he said simply. "Eleven point three percent. I'd suggest the rest of you write that down."

The lecture resumed. Orion lowered his hand and looked back at his notebook. Around him, he could feel the subtle shift in the room: the sideways glances, the quiet whispers, the recalibration of how his classmates now understood the quiet young man in the third row.

He was used to that recalibration. It happened everywhere he went.

I never tried to stand out. I want to be clear about that. Standing out was the last thing I ever wanted. I just couldn't help knowing things. Couldn't help seeing solutions before other people saw the problems. It was like being slightly ahead of a film everyone else was watching in real time: the next scene was always visible to me a fraction before it arrived. I didn't understand why. For most of my life, I simply accepted it the way you accept the color of your eyes. It was just part of what I was. Whatever that was.

THREE MONTHS LATER

By November of his first year, Orion had quietly become something of a legend at MIT, though legend was not a word he would have chosen. He would have chosen problem.

He enrolled in courses designed for third- and fourth-year students. Graduate program advisors had already approached him twice, asking if he had considered graduating early. He had declined both times, not because he wasn't ready but because he wasn't sure what waited on the other side of ready, and the uncertainty made him cautious.

His professors had stopped being surprised by him. That in itself was a kind of progress.

What they couldn't know (what nobody knew, not even Orion himself) was that his mind didn't work the way other minds worked. It wasn't simply that he was intelligent. Intelligence was common enough at MIT. What Orion had was something different. Something harder to name. When he looked at a complex system (an equation, an engineering problem, a question of physics that had stumped researchers for decades), he didn't just see the components. He saw the spaces between the components. Relationships. The invisible architecture underneath the visible structure.

Connections revealed themselves to him with startling clarity. He had always assumed everyone experienced the world that way. He was eighteen years old before he understood it wasn't.

There was a night in November (cold, the kind of Cambridge cold that comes off the Charles River and finds every gap in your jacket) when I sat on the steps outside the main building and looked up at the sky for a long time. The stars were faint through the city lights, but I could find Orion without trying. I always could. I used to think my parents had simply chosen a good name. Something that suited me. A name that looked up instead of down. I didn't yet know how much more than that it was. I just sat there in the cold and looked up and felt the familiar feeling I had felt my whole life: that the sky wasn't just something above me. It was somewhere I was supposed to go.

He told no one about that feeling. He had learned early that some things were better kept to himself.

DECEMBER — END OF FIRST SEMESTER

His grades were, in the clinical language of MIT's academic records, exceptional. In more human language, they were unprecedented. Not a single professor in the department could recall a first-year student performing at the level Orion Cross was performing.

Dr. Sarah Chen, who chaired the aerospace engineering department and had spent twenty-six years identifying exceptional talent, requested a meeting with him in the second week of December.

Her office was exactly what Orion expected: floor-to-ceiling bookshelves, a desk buried under papers, a small model of the International Space Station on the windowsill catching the gray winter light. She gestured to the chair across from her desk and studied him for a moment before speaking.

"I'll be direct with you," she said. "I've been doing this for twenty-six years and have seen perhaps four or five students in that time who had something genuinely different about them. Something beyond intelligence. Beyond work ethic. Something I can never quite put my finger on, but always recognize when I see it." She paused. "You have it."

She let that settle, watching him with the unhurried attention of someone reading an instrument she did not yet fully trust. "You corrected Alan Garrett mid-lecture this fall. In front of two hundred and forty students." The smile was dry. "He has been teaching that derivation since before you were born, and half this faculty has been retelling the story ever since. But what interests me is not that you were right. This institute is full of people who are right. What interests me is the way you did it. By every account you raised your hand only once you were certain, you said it as quietly as a person can say a thing out loud, and the moment he conceded you went back to your notebook as though you wanted the floor to close over the whole exchange." She studied him. "Most gifted young people spend their energy trying to be seen. You spend yours trying not to be. I find that the rarer instinct, and the more interesting one."

Orion didn't know what to say to that. He said nothing.

"I'm not telling you this to flatter you," she continued. "I'm telling you because I think you should know that whatever path you're on, you should trust it. Even when it doesn't make sense to other people. Even when it doesn't make sense to you."

She was quiet for a moment, and when she spoke again some of the briskness had left her voice. "I'll tell you the part no one tells you," she said. "It is lonely, what you have. It will take you into rooms no one else can follow you into, and it will ask you to trust yourself at the exact moments when every reasonable person around you is urging you to be sensible. I have watched students with a fraction of your gift talk themselves out of it, because the certainty frightened them more than the doubt ever did." She held his eyes. "Don't do that. The doubt you can live with. The other thing, the slow talking of yourself into something smaller, you don't come back from."

"What if I don't know what path I'm on?" he said.

Dr. Chen smiled in a way that suggested she had heard that answer before from the people she considered most worth watching.

"Then you're exactly where you're supposed to be," she said.

He thought about that conversation for a long time afterward. Longer than he would have admitted to anyone.

She was the first person who ever made me feel like the thing that made me different was something to move toward rather than something to manage. I had spent my whole life being careful. Careful not to answer too quickly. Careful not to know too much out loud. Careful not to let people see the full shape of whatever I was. I didn't know why I was so careful. I just knew that some instinct deep inside me had always said, quietly, consistently, with absolute certainty: not yet. Like there was a version of myself I hadn't been introduced to. Like I was waiting for something I couldn't name.

Outside the window of Dr. Chen's office, the first snow of winter was beginning to fall on Cambridge. Orion watched it on the walk back to his dormitory, each flake catching the lamplight for a single brilliant moment before disappearing into the dark.

He was eighteen years old. He had no idea what he was.

But somewhere in a galaxy two and a half million light-years away, in a civilization older than human language, older than human memory, older than the first human eye that ever turned toward the sky and wondered —

They knew exactly what he was.

And they were already watching.

Time moves differently when your mind runs faster than the world around it.

For most students at MIT, struggle defined the years: late nights and failed experiments and the slow, hard-won accumulation of understanding. Orion watched this process with something that was not quite sympathy and not quite envy. He understood the struggle intellectually. He simply could not locate it within himself.

By the spring of his second year, he had completed the coursework required for his first degree. His academic advisor, a careful and methodical man named Professor Douglas Webb, had called him into his office with the particular expression of someone about to say something they had never said before.

"In thirty-two years of advising," Webb said slowly, "I have never recommended that a student pursue a second doctorate simultaneously with their first." He paused. "I am going to recommend it now."

Orion looked at him. "Why are you telling me this like it's bad news?"

"Because," Webb said, "in my experience, the students who move fastest through this institution are also the ones who find it hardest to move through the world outside it. Intelligence is not the same thing as wisdom, Mr. Cross. Speed is not the same thing as direction." He folded his hands on the desk. "Do you know where you're going?"

Orion thought about the stars. About the feeling that had lived in his chest since childhood, like a compass needle that never stopped pointing somewhere he couldn't name.

"Not yet," he said. "But I think I'll know it when I get there."

Webb studied him for a long moment and then nodded slowly, as though that answer, incomplete and honest as it was, was the most acceptable one Orion could have given.

I think about that conversation sometimes. Webb was right about more than he knew. I was moving fast, faster than anyone around me understood, but I had no destination. Just the feeling. Just that quiet, insistent pull toward something I couldn't see yet. Looking back now, I understand that the pull was never random. It was never just restlessness or ambition or the vague hunger of a young man with too much ability and not enough to aim it at. It was something older than me. Something that had been waiting long before I was born. But at nineteen, sitting in Webb's cluttered office in the gray Cambridge spring, I didn't know any of that. I just knew I wasn't done yet. I knew there was more. I just couldn't tell you more of what.

2019 — 2022

The years that followed settled into a rhythm that looked, from the outside, like the most remarkable academic career in MIT's modern history. From the inside it felt like something quieter and stranger, like being a clock that ran at the right speed in a room full of clocks that ran slightly slow.

He pursued his degrees with the focused patience of someone who understood that each one was a piece of something larger whose full shape he couldn't yet see. Aerospace engineering first, because the sky had always called to him and engineering was the language of building things that could reach it. Then electrical engineering, because systems needed power and power needed to be understood at its most fundamental level. Followed by mechanical engineering. Then chemical engineering. Each discipline opening into the next like a series of doors, each one revealing not an ending but another corridor.

Physics came last and felt like coming home.

There was a particular evening in his fourth year when he was sitting alone in one of the laboratory spaces long after everyone else had gone home. The building was quiet in the way large institutional buildings get quiet at night, not silent but settled, the hum of equipment and the distant sound of the heating system filling the spaces between things. He had been working on a theoretical problem in quantum mechanics for three hours. The kind of problem that existed at the edge of current understanding, where the mathematics suggested things that physics couldn't yet confirm.

He solved it in the fourth hour.

He sat back and looked at what he had written for a long time. Then he looked around the empty room (the blank whiteboards, the idle equipment, the rows of empty chairs) and felt something he had no immediate name for. It wasn't pride. It wasn't satisfaction exactly. It was closer to loneliness. The particular loneliness of having no one to tell.

The loneliness called up something he had not thought about in years. He had been fifteen, in a crowded school corridor he wanted badly to be out of, a teacher working her way down it with a slip of paper in her hand and his name on it. He had wanted, suddenly and completely and with his whole body, not to be seen. And her eyes had passed over him. Not skipped. Passed, the way a hand moves across a surface without catching the seam in it. She had looked directly at the place where he was standing, found nothing there worth stopping for, and moved on. He had told himself afterward that he was simply good at being overlooked. He had been telling himself that his whole life. It was easier than the alternative, which he did not yet have a name for and would not have one for years.

That night in the lab was when I first understood something clearly that I had only felt vaguely before. It wasn't that I was smarter than the people around me, though by most measurable definitions I was. It was that I was operating in a different dimension of understanding. Not better. Just different. Removed. Like I was watching the world through glass that nobody else could see. I could press my hands against it. I could see everything on the other side. But I couldn't get through. And nobody on the other side knew the glass was there. I drove home that night under a sky full of stars, and I remember thinking: there has to be somewhere I fit. There has to be something I'm for. Because this, this half-life of almost belonging, this cannot be everything.

2022 — A THURSDAY IN OCTOBER

He made friends the way careful people make friends: slowly, selectively, and with a part of himself always held in reserve.

Marcus Webb, no relation to his advisor, was the closest thing to a genuine friend Orion had at MIT. He was a mechanical engineering student from Atlanta, loud in the best possible way, with a laugh that filled whatever room he was in and an absolute refusal to be intimidated by anyone's intelligence, including Orion's. He had decided within their first week of knowing each other that Orion Cross was the strangest and most interesting person he had ever met and had appointed himself accordingly.

They were walking back across campus after class, the late afternoon sun stretching the shadows long across the courtyard. Marcus bumped him with a shoulder.

"You grew up in California, right? Pasadena?"

"Yeah," Orion said.

"So what made you come all the way out here? MIT's a long way from home."

Orion did not answer right away. Marcus noticed, the way he noticed most things, and did not push. He just walked, and waited.

"My mom died when I was nine," Orion said finally. "My dad a few years after that. After that, Pasadena stopped feeling like home. Everywhere I went I saw them. I needed to be somewhere that didn't remember them for me."

Marcus's easy expression went quiet. "Yeah," he said. "I get that."

"And MIT had everything I wanted," Orion went on, glad to move the weight off the first part. "The physics, the math, the kind of work I wanted to do." He paused. "But it was more than that. I felt pulled here. I can't explain it any better than that. It just felt like the place I was meant to end up."

Marcus smiled. "And the acceptance letter didn't hurt."

Orion let out a short, surprised laugh. "No. That helped."

"Well," Marcus said, hands in his pockets, "for what it's worth, I'm glad you ended up here."

Orion looked ahead, down the long line of the path. "Yeah," he said. "Me too."

Marcus let the quiet sit for exactly as long as he could stand it, which was not long. "Okay. That's enough feelings for one walk." He clapped Orion on the shoulder and steered him off the path. "Come on. There's a diner on the next block that does a spaghetti marinara that'll change your life, and you're buying, because you made me listen to all that."

Orion almost protested. He had work waiting, a problem set, a list of things he was always behind on. But Marcus was already walking, already talking about something else, already holding the door, and Orion found himself following him into the warm light and the smell of bread and the booth by the window that would, without either of them deciding it, become theirs.

"You're doing it again," Marcus said one Thursday evening. They were sitting in a booth at a small restaurant two blocks from campus, the remnants of dinner between them.

"Doing what?"

"The thing where you go somewhere else. You're sitting right here and you're completely gone."

Orion looked at him. "Sorry."

"Don't apologize. Just tell me where you go."

Orion considered the question more seriously than Marcus probably intended it. Where did he go? To the problem at the back of his mind that was always running, always processing, always turning itself over, looking for the angle he hadn't tried yet? The sky? To that wordless place where the feeling lived, the compass needle pointing at something unnamed?

"I don't know exactly," he said finally. "Forward, I think."

Marcus looked at him for a moment and then nodded with the particular acceptance of someone who has learned not to push too hard against a closed door.

"You know what your problem is?" Marcus said, picking up his coffee.

"I'm sure you're going to tell me."

"You're the most prepared person I've ever met for a journey you can't describe to anybody." He took a sip. "That's a weird thing to be, man."

Orion looked at him across the table (this loud, warm, entirely ordinary person who had somehow seen something true about him without any of the information required to understand it) and felt a sudden and unexpected surge of gratitude that almost embarrassed him.

For a moment he almost told him. Not that there was anything to tell: only the feeling, the pull, the compass needle that had been pointing somewhere unnamed since before he could remember. But it rose on the back of that gratitude and pressed against the back of his teeth, wanting out. He had never wanted to say it to anyone. He wanted to say it to Marcus. Then he thought about what it would mean to set that weight down in front of someone who could do nothing with it except worry, and he let the moment pass. The loneliness that followed was a specific one. It was the loneliness of having chosen it.

"Yeah," he said. "It is."

Marcus held his eyes a second longer than the moment required, long enough that Orion understood he had been caught almost saying something, and then let it go, because letting things go was the kindest thing he knew how to do.

Marcus never knew what he saw in me that night. I never told him. How do you explain to someone that they accidentally described your entire existence in two sentences over bad restaurant coffee? He was right, though. I was prepared. My whole life felt like preparation: the studying, the degrees, the relentless accumulation of knowledge across every discipline that called to me. I just didn't know what I was preparing for. I had built myself into something extraordinary without a blueprint and without a destination. I was a key that hadn't found its lock yet. And the not knowing was getting harder to carry with every year that passed.

MIT — MAY 2025 — GRADUATION

The ceremony was held outdoors on a warm May afternoon, the kind of New England spring day that feels like an apology for the winter. Chairs filled the courtyard in precise rows. Families crowded the edges: parents with cameras, siblings in uncomfortable clothes, grandparents shielding their eyes against the sun.

Orion sat in the third row. Old habits.

Around him, his fellow graduates talked in the animated, slightly disbelieving way of people who have finished something hard. He listened to their conversations about job offers and graduate programs, and apartments in cities they were moving to, and felt fond of them in the distant way you feel fond of people whose world you are passing through rather than joining.

His name was called.

He walked across the stage five times. Once for each degree. By the third crossing, the audience began to murmur. By the fifth there was laughter, warm and astonished rather than mocking, and a sustained applause that followed him back to his seat and left him sitting very still, looking at his hands.

Five doctoral degrees. Aerospace engineering. Electrical engineering. Mechanical engineering. Chemical engineering. Physics. All of them earned by the age of twenty-five. All of them real. All of them his.

And still, the feeling. Still, the compass needle. Still, the wordless, insistent certainty that this, all of this, was not the destination. It was the preparation.

After the ceremony, the courtyard filled with the organized chaos of celebration. Families found their graduates. Photographs were taken. There were tears and embraces and the particular joy of people who had shared something difficult and were now standing on the other side of it together.

Orion stood at the edge of it all with his five degrees in a cardboard tube under his arm and watched.

He had no family in the crowd. No one had come. There was no one to come. He had accepted this fact a long time ago with the quiet practicality of someone who has learned to grieve small things efficiently. But standing there on the afternoon of the most significant day of his academic life, he felt the absence more acutely than usual. Like a frequency just below hearing that you feel in your chest rather than your ears.

Marcus found him at the edge of the crowd, grinning and slightly disheveled, his own degree tucked under his arm.

"Five times," Marcus said, shaking his head. "You walked across that stage five times. Do you understand how insane that is?"

"Three would have felt excessive," Orion said.

Marcus laughed and pulled him into a brief, genuine embrace that Orion was not entirely prepared for and was grateful for in equal measure.

"What happens now?" Marcus asked, stepping back and looking at him with the directness that had always been his best quality.

Orion looked past him at the courtyard full of celebrating people, at the buildings of MIT rising against the blue May sky, at the thin white contrail of a plane moving silently overhead toward somewhere he couldn't see.

"Now," he said, "I think something finds me."

Marcus opened his mouth to ask what that meant.

But Orion was already looking at the sky.

I was right. I just didn't know how soon.

TWO AND A HALF MILLION LIGHT-YEARS AWAY — THE SAME AFTERNOON

In a room that had no precise equivalent in human architecture (a space defined less by its walls than by the quality of light within it, a light that moved the way thought moves, purposeful and without waste) three figures stood around something that was not quite a table and studied something that was not quite a map.

The figures were humanoid in the way that evolution, given sufficient time and the right conditions, tends toward humanoids. Two arms. Two legs. Upright. Bilateral symmetry. But the resemblance to humanity ended at the outline. Their eyes were larger and held a depth that suggested they were processing more of the visible spectrum than human eyes were built to receive. Their movements were economical in the way of beings who had long since stopped wasting energy on anything unnecessary. They had been alive, each of them, for centuries beyond counting, each one older than any living thing on Earth.

On the surface before them, the not-quite-table, a single point of light pulsed with steady rhythm. Patient. Consistent. Like a heartbeat.

Like a signal that had been quietly broadcasting for twenty-five years and had finally reached the frequency they had been waiting for.

"He has completed his preparation," the first figure said. Not in any human language. In something older.

"He doesn't know that's what it was," said the second.

"No," said the first. "He wouldn't."

A silence passed between them, not the silence of people who have nothing to say but the silence of people who have already said everything that needed to be said and are now simply arriving at the moment they have been building toward for a very long time.

The third figure had not spoken yet. When it did, its voice carried the particular quality of someone accustomed to making decisions that could not be unmade.

"Then it is time," it said simply.

The point of light on the surface pulsed once, brighter than before, and then settled back into its steady rhythm.

Twenty-five years of watching. Twenty-five years of waiting. Twenty-five years of a young man on an insignificant planet in an unremarkable galaxy looking up at the sky and feeling something he couldn't name pulling him toward a destiny he couldn't see.

The waiting was over.

They were coming to Cambridge.

Three days after graduation Marcus called him.

"I'm heading back to Atlanta next week," he said. "My family is throwing some kind of party. You should come."

"I can't," Orion said. "I have something I need to do."

A pause. "Something you can describe?"

"Not yet," Orion said. "Maybe not ever."

Another pause. Longer this time.

"Is it dangerous?" Marcus asked.

Orion thought about this honestly. "Probably," he said. "At some point."

"But you're going anyway."

"Yes."

He could hear Marcus breathing on the other end of the line. The particular breathing of someone who is choosing their next words carefully.

"Then I hope it's worth it," Marcus said finally. "Whatever it is. I hope it's the thing you've been pointing at your whole life."

Orion looked out his east-facing windows at the Cambridge afternoon. The sky was ordinary and blue and entirely itself.

"I think it might be," he said.

"Good," Marcus said. "Then go do it. And when you're done, whenever that is, come find me and tell me everything."

Orion smiled. It was the first time in several days that his face had done that without being asked.

"I will," he said.